Everything is so perfect. I know everything =D
And everything looks so amazing from my point of view <333

I love my life =D

Apparently anything can be done at the last minute, and I can read a whole book in 45 minutes.
Eating at 2AM is normal.
No one, ever, goes to bed before the next day.
The "Study Lounge" consists of everything but studying.
All tests are "Mid-Terms".
The $70 insurance fee on our meal plans only encourages us to steal shit.
A nap a day lets you stay up later at night.
You never get to watch TV at normal times.
Everyone seems to have a messed up relationship except two people.
I still don't like Indian food no matter how many times I eat it. It looks the same going in as it does coming out.

So anyway, I'm noow in my... let me see my calender... 11th week of College. Which means I have about 5 or 6 more to go... actually, I come home 6 weeks from today. Awesome. So I think I'll be good if I can get a few better grades in some of my more important classes. Which means canceling out my C in math, and getting my Bio grade from a B to an A. Theater... that class just pisses me off... why did I take it? I thught it would be fun, but of course it has more work then Chemistry, no wait... maybe the same... but definitely more work than math. I find myself up 6 hours later than usual when I am doing theater homework. I know i get English credits for it, but it's not worth it. Besides, its 3 hours on a friday, and who wants to go to class on a friday...
So now I'm deciding between 164 and 165 for Math... and this decision can impact my future, both immediately and long term... and I ony have until Friday to choose. Why I capatilized friday, I don't know, is it suppose to be capatilized? cause I know months are... but days? Hey why don't we have names for our weeks... we skip right from months to days... but I digress. So anyway, I can take either Multidimentional Calculus, or I can take Linear Functions and Differential Equations. This is key if I want to double major in Statistics. I don't know what to do... this sucks.... and I don't want anymore Friday classes. I want fridays off, and it's getting harder and harder to do that. Grrr... but at least everyone here is having these problems.
Okay, so there is a guy here living on my floor... well let me just tell you he is kind of a stalker, and he is probably the most likely person to kill someone. I don't like him, he scares me. I'm probably the only one here that thinks,"well we have 8 people in the room, we can take him if he goes crazy". Everyone else just cowers. I mean the guy blows up, and I think he has the higest potential to kill someone. Plus he eats all of our food and comes into places he is not invited. I mean, he's not even a freshman. I tend to ignore him, I think it only makes him angrier... but I don't care. I don't like him.
Where is the line? Have I crossed it? I think on occasion I have, but then when I see other people my age, I wonder where exactly the line is. What have I done illegal... well I guess a few things, but in a normal life of a college student, I don't know if they would be legal. Whatever. You highschool kids do crazy things, and apparently everyone does it. I don't understand it. At All. I mean I thought some things were immoral, but when a majority of people do them, are they still just as immoral. In the great words of Sean McCauley, "we are just being civil disobedients". This is a terrible representation. And I think I'll keep to my morals and standards, even if society tells me otherwise, and if they are not "cool" or "popular". I mean I do believe there will come a time where I bend the rules a little, but I really try not to.
15 days till I come home, 16 till Thanksgiving. Wow this semester went fast. College is treating me well, but I do have to say i miss my friends at home. But most of all I miss my favorite girl<3, and everyone, long distance reationships are hard, but they can work. At least I really, really, really hope they can. It's all through trust, and thats all I have, trust and love.
Oh well I think I need sleep. Chem test on Thursday... yikes... eh... that class is a joke anyway. As long as I can memorize rates of effusion and root mean square speed, i should be fine. Oh and Ryan... they call them ICE charts here, so I think they beat you to it... sorry to burst your bubble. Chem-11/8 Calc 11/15 Bio 11/21... 3 weeks of hell!
Goodnight everyone!
<3Me

PS. I like talking in circles! It's my style, sort of a creative writing art form. LMAO Creative Writing! Haha...

Staying up all night doing work: 7 hours of sleep lost a night
Being away from my girl: heartbreaking
Taking a theater class: 4 assignments a week
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Going to a kick-ass college: Priceless

Why am I a science major, why did I take theater, why can't I get straight A's?!?
Eh... well I guess it's what happens when I go to a really good college, I can tell you what the Electron Transport Chain does, down the the chemical formulas for each protein and enzyme in the chain. I've read 5 books in the past 4 weeks, thats just too much, and I read... and read... and read... I've never felt more literate in my life. Series equations in Calc, not fun. What test am I suppose to use, the intergral, comparison, ratio... and like 6 others.

How do i survive? Well, I know for a fact that I'm kicking everyone's ass from Division '07, but that's just a side thing. What really keeps me going is a girl back home, what would I do without her. If my day is crappy, she makes it so much better, and she puts up with all of my rants, and even if I project stuff on her. I can't believe she puts up with me. I can't describe how important she is to me. Haha, let me go to bed before I make, well, less sense. Yay U of R!! Yay Home in 18 days!! Yay for the invention of the telephone!!! and Yay for miracles, cause thats really what I have.

As much as I say I am unlucky, I still am the luckiest person in the world where it counts. I'll trip up and down stairs a million times for what I have.

Close your eyes and I'll kiss you,
Tomorrow I'll miss you;
Remember I'll always be true.
And then while I'm away,
I'll write home ev'ry day,
And I'll send all my loving to you.

I'll pretend That I'm kissing
the lips I am missing
And hope that my draems will come true.
And then while I'm away,
I'll write home ev'ry day,
And I'll send all my loving to you.

All my loving I will send to you.
All my loving, darling I'll be true.

All My Loving - The Beatles

I guess this song would describe my past week. Friday to Friday that is... I have so much work that needs to be done... it kinda sucks. So here I am eating my cup-o-noddles, but now I'm done so now I can get back to typing. Ho'kay... so I just lived the greatest weekend in my entire life, no jokes about it. I got to spend all my time with the most amazing girl on the face of the earth. The perfect girl if you will. Love is a very interesting thing. Apparently, I don't know how I made it through this long in my life without someone. It makes my life perfect, and here I am once again counting down the days until I can be home, and have the girl I love with me again. It's actually less than 40 days right now. Hmm... I love her, but thats why I write her letters, I wonder if she gets tired of them after awhile... I really hope not. I'm gonna massivly overload on video games, since I haven't played since early July... er... June...

<3 Me

Since I just hit my 1 month in college I thought I would write a little bit about everything. And I am kind of tired so I don't know exactly how this is going to come out. So yeah today was a month in Rochester, and yesterday was a month since I've been home, and two days ago was a month since I've seen Jamie. So now I'm in the lounge and I just sang "Here Comes the Sun", with Kohei playing guitar. Not bad, we should make a band. I'm loving that my voice is getting better, and I probably have the best singing skills on the floor... maybe even in the building. So I learned that a lot of people here live about 20 minutes away from my house in Levittown. So but anyway I am coming home in a week, actually less than a week. So that is fun. The fact that I'm doing homework at 2am is not. Lets see if I can get my work done tomorrow, and finish it all on sunday, and by tuesday be done for next week. I plan on spending 90% of my time with the most amazing person in the world. Yes, she will in fact make my life 1000 times better. I would walk home of I needed to. But anyway....

I play Roller Hockey on club, but it's more of a pickup game where I have gotten progressively better, as well as exercise. I have gotten better at singing :) and of course I am happy about that. My range is so ridicilous now, it goes from really high to low and I make great sound. My teacher says I have "good pipes", I'm proud of that haha. I've been studing so hard and doing so much work, even people who I think do a lot of work say I do too much work. Whatever. I've been in the lounge since around 11PM, and now it's close to 3, and now there are more people than before... It's amazing.

SO I'll be home in less than one week. I honestly have to say one thing that has been keeping me sane, and keeping me alright is possibly the greatest girl I have at home. I love writing and talking to her, no matter how boring she thinks she is. She is possibly the most amazing person to talk to, I mean who else could I talk to for 2 to 3 hours a night. This is what I love about our relationship. We don't need to be constantly attached, like some people, and we can talk to each other. Its nice to have someone to talk to, and it's also nice to know that there is a girl that is both beautiful and interesting to talk to, and can actually hold a conversation. I'm just so happy. I thought this could never happen. I can't even tell you what the feeling is going to be like when I see her again. It will probably be so much better when I came back from Europe, and all of those awkward moments we've shared.

I need to stop before this makes any less sense. Goodnight.

<3 Me

Check back for a new entry sometime after 6pm tonight (9/28/07).

1 month in Rochester
1 week till I go home
(ironic... I know)

I actuallt don't... I'm so far behind that I really should be working through the night, but whatever. I'm taking Advanced Biology which doesn't seem too hard yet, but I do have some anxiety that it might get really hard, really quickly. I'm starting to get behind in that class too even though I was keeping up originally. Chemistry is a joke. It is my easiest class, I can probably sleep through the class and get an A, so normally I find myself on vacation when I do that work. Theater is just a lot of fun, but since its an English class... it's a lot of reading. Math... just forget about it. 7 hours of homework on stuff I don't understand... it's just insane. I think I might drop down into an easier math class. What was a bio major like me thinking when i took the hardest math class on campus. lol oh well. But anyway I've been getting super involved here. I play on the Roller Hockey Team and I am in Off Broadway on Campus, a broadway review club. I also take voice lessons at the prestigeous Eastman School of Music.

All of that aside, I'll be home in 16 days. Isn't that cool? I'm excited. I get to see the love of my life :p and sleep in my own bed for a few nights again. Hopefully I can catch up on sleep, but I intend to spend most of my time with the most amazing girl in the entire world, except she doesn't know it yet... shhh... haha. Oh and I'm writing a mathmatical proff about how lucky I am. Oh yeah, and I'm really happy right now :) Only one person really knows why. And I have a new best friend... we'll shes been my best friend longer than she knows, but now she truly is my best friend. Is it bad to be in love with your best friend? hahaha, well I need to go to bed cause I don't make sense anymore. Goodnight all :p

<3 Me

Okay so I read like a ton of shit... a ton of shit today. Biology, Chemistry, Theater... you name it. I'm tired, like really tired... so I have to get ahead on my reading one day this week so i can take a day off. Yesterday was a crazy day for me. I auditioned for lessons at the Eastman School of music as well as for the show, and also went to my first roller hockey "practice". But the good news is that I got accepted to Eastman for voice lessons, after getting torn a new one at my violin audition. I've been playing violin for near to 12 years now, and taking lessons for almost 8 years. I get brutally picked apart at the audition, and was largely discouraged. I went into voice not expected to really do much. I was on line with 3 girls, all with french operettas that were incredibly difficult, and there I am standing with my Empty Chairs, thinking, "wow I'm gonna get wrecked". So I go in and everyone seemed much nicer, when I said the name of the piece I wasn't criticized this time, but still nonetheless I started shaking a bit when the pianist started playing. Once I was qued in I just took off, I forgot that I actually am a decent singer... oh well. I thought I did pretty well, except a few times I got off with the tempo. Whatever, I was powerful and using vibratto, I didn't know I knew how to do that either... wtf happened to me over the summer... I didn't sing since HSM, and didn't practice for the audition. I thought it was funny when she asked when my last lesson was, and I said I've never taken lessons before. They were a little impressed with me before I left so I was excited. I was overjoyed when I saw the email that night that I was accepted. I did have to skip half of the student survey though, with questions that pretained to lessons, and what I have studied in the past. I haven't really sang since 5th grade, was never in chorus, I just liked to do it... well I guess this just says something. And it is a great confidence booster. So now I'm taking Theater and Voice Lessons, I'll be ready for "Hello Again" and I'll definitely kick some ass and take some names at the Les Mis Auditions... yeah you guys better watch out. Not only that, but I am a semi-tripple threat up here. My acting skills have improved already, I am a decent dancer compaired to the people up here, and I have a great singing voice. So now I just have to beat out the 5 other guys that do theater up here. Not to mention I'm trying to get in shape, which means workouts start tomorrow. I've been doing cardio every-other day, but now I wanna get into it everyday. I took a puck to the shin and now it hurts a little, it could be because it was bleeding for awhile and now its bruised, but I guess it was totally worth it. I've been reading, oh have i been reading. I finished a book in a matter of 4 hours, I think thats a new record. It's a play titled "Crimes of the Heart". It wasn't too bad... and for some reason the end made me kinda have feeling, which was weird. Hmmm... for some reason it made me fall in love all over again, I liked the feeling, believe me. But it made me think of my girl again and how much I love her, so I really can't complain. I miss her so much... Everytime I see her picture (which are all over the place), I wonder how such a beautiful girl would ever find someone like me... I literally am the luckiest person in the world. I miss her soooo much, but I know this is working out, so I'm not really all that worried, cause when I see her again everything will be 1Million times better, and a million times better than before ;) So I guess all i want to say is that I'm tired... and please don't make me read anymore textbooks, unless they are going to make me feel loved... not a million articles about how we screwed up the planet... So goodnight all (even though I'll probably be awake for another hour)!
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